Married life

The morning after the wedding when people asked 'do you feel any different' the answer was no! I had just got married and was still battling the tummy bug which struck me down just before the wedding so I felt just the same. Plus I was enjoying the fact that it was my birthday. I didn't feel like a 'wife'.

However, in the six days between the wedding and the honeymoon I did start to change. I panicked. I was terrified. Was I still me? Did I have to act differently? Would I be treated differently? I wanted to remain a mademoiselle not become madame.
I admit I did distance myself from Rich a bit too. How did I act with him? this person that had taken the essence of 'me' away?

I don't know for sure when things changed but I know it happened on the honeymoon. All of those thought sorted themselves out in my head and I let them go. I realised I was still me and that was that.

I do feel different, I feel settled and secure. Much happier than I have been for a long time. I'm not on my own anymore I can share my mistakes and all the good things.

In the past month I've learnt things can't be perfect (Rich still leaves socks on the floor and does my head in from time to time), we argue but it doesn't last long. The word 'divorce' normally stops and argument and ends in laughter. I really hope that continues forever!